My biggest fear in life is the outcome of my future, and I've been thinking about that a lot lately. I feel like I won't make it, and I don't have a a fall back plan if that's the case. I only pursued nursing because that's what's expected of me. But it's too challenging for me. I've never been the brightest person, and this major is like a battle field. People say that "You'll be fine, you're a smart girl" "Keep your head up" "You got this" but I don't.  I feel like I'm failing. I feel defeated. I feel lost. And it's killing me. I've held myself up for so long, and I feel like I can't do it anymore.